There are always those days in life where it seems like you are on a roller coaster of emotion with no way to prepare for the twist, curve, or drop of the up coming tracks. Yesterday was one of those days for me.
A beautiful windy fall Sunday with a birthday party scheduled for a rambunctious and excited soon to be four year old; I woke up with a clear expectation of what the day had in store, but how wrong I was. While driving to the party I received word that a wonderful educator, who I had spent five years teaching with, had been killed in a tragic car accident. In an instant everything that was expected from the day was changed. Yes, the party was still fun and exciting but for me it was tempered with sadness. Then it was on to visit a friend who is ill followed by the news that another friend received an engagement ring. Roller coaster of emotions marked the day, and all you can do is hold on and ride along with it.
We get bogged down sometimes in the sadness and hardships of life, especially when it feels that they are being heaped upon us in spades. However, we must remember that our list of blessings far outweighs the burdens; though sometimes it takes really sitting down and listing them all out to see that. Even when we think that the burdens upon us are too much to carry, we turn and find someone lifting part of it with us. Though it may seem to drag on day, after day, after day, someday this too will pass. Through it all, there are still all of the emotions to go through and sometimes we must just accept the twists and turns as they come.
All the people that come in and out of our lives have an impact on us even when we aren't always aware of it. I was lucky enough to meet an amazing woman and teacher, lucky enough to call her my friend, and have the opportunity to see her impact young lives. There is nothing that will ease the ache and sadness that comes with her passing, but I have some great memories to hold onto while I grieve for the loss. She will live on in the memories of family, friends, and in the knowledge that she imparted to so many students over the course of her career. Rest in peace my friend and former colleague, you are missed.